Hi Jen,

Reading your post, I have just realised how much your posts have changed over the time since we have been here. You have gradually become stronger, and more able to ride the ups and downs, just as I hope I have.

It has taken a long time, and there will probably be some pitfalls for us in the future, but when I read your posts these days I feel that I am reading someone who has grown in many ways, and coped with some of the hardest experiences that come to people in this life.

I have had a few heavy 3d experiences, which would have terrified most people, but they were nothing at all compared to the anxiety that comes from within me, nothing at all.

I believe that if we were able to give a regular person a full blown panic attack, we would see them break down right in front of us, because that is what a panic attack is, a complete loss of control in the experience of raw fear. I wouldn't wish it on anyone, even as a learning experience!

Nowadays, I believe that we just can't expect people to understand what they don't know, cos they don't know about it.

When I was a union rep, I used to interview people who were in danger of losing their jobs. A person night have been cocky and confident one day, but when their name went on that redundancy list they deflated like limp balloons. It's just a fact of life life that most people don't worry until it's happening to them, and then it's a completely different story of course.

That's life.

Good thoughts, M (fellow warrior!)