I don't miss my ex or anything about the relationship. I am over the heartbroken stage. I am relieved that I am no longer in that relationship and even though it was 2 years of my life I am grateful that it wasn't 5 or 10 years of my life. Its been about 4-5 months since we've broken up and haven't seen the guy or spoke to him. When I am reminded of him I become angry. It puts me in a bad mood. Does this mean I haven't yet moved on? I feel angry and begin to think about what a waste of time it was with him. I start to get mad and disappointed in myself bc I should have know better and how can I let myself get so lost in that ugly mess of a realtionship. It gets really bad when I start to feel shame when I think about the relationship. Feeling used and unloved is hard to ignore. Its not "him" that I'm thinking about but I think about the feelings I felt in the relationship.

I thought I was moving on and doing so well but when things triggers me it makes me feel I'm taking 2 steps back. I thought I was doing so good.