well, I am somewhere between hypomanic and manic right now, because I am bit outta there... so forgive me if I don't sound that coherent. I have been to places where all becomes a blurr...

And we all have our vices, and we all are going to die... I am aware that the times when I hyperfocus and don't sleep that much... when i was working on my bachelor thesis I lived inside my head (and somewhere in West bank...) and then one day I walked out of the computer lab and realized "wow, it's spring". People comfirmed that I was not the most fun to have around... or the project i lead... not sleeping much, drinking, being there for others (they realized something may be off with me as they urgued me to sleep or at least sit down for a bit...)... of course then I crashed when it ended and slept a lot for a week...

but I just don't see how it would help me with my life overall to dampen all the productivity times I have. I would not get anything done (or at least not as much as I do now) and that would make me hell depressed...

I am aware of the dangers though. I really am.