Guys i'm n0t going to change my mind. I'm n0t even upset or sad anymore. I lived with my bp for ten years before dx and i was coping. I went on meds as per request, tried it for the last 2 years and frankly, i d0n't like where it's going. I'm on meds that cause trem0rs and mem0ry loss. I've tried remaining positive and even encouraged others, but i can't ign0re how i feel any longer. I want to go back to the way things were, i kn0w what my challenges are n0w, and i want to do this my way n0w. I have a gr8 supp0rt system who's willing to help me. Thanks to everyone for the support and advice i really appreciate it.