Yes, forgiveness is hard for me also;

Especially if there is an emotional attachment, i.e., family member. They say that forgiveness is part,if not "the" most important part of the healing process.
In buddhism the 6 paramita's(spiritual term for reaching the other shore,seeing past this realm of existence)generousity, patience exertion,diligence, concentration, prajna(highest wisdom). Patience has three parts; accepting suffering,virtuosity, forgiveness.
So, in essence, we need to be patient in forgiveness. Making it a process of both practice, and prayer. Because holding onto it only hurts the self, not anyone else, in the long run. BB

I'm bblessd, went through rough times in my life,most of which were out of my control(mom suicide at 12, dad drinking problem and womaniizing,unresolved trauma and grief process,addiction,depression,anxiety issues,etc.ect.)finally began to pray for end to suffering,I did AA/NA. I went(I say the lord led me)to yoga,meditation,buddhism,the met-physical,to a better understanding of god. Now, again a practicing christian,I read the bible with different eyes. I still meditate, but now, as a tool to pray.