Hello everyone, my name is Nick. I'm 21 years old, just got back from Afghanistan as an infantry soldier with the us army, I've been depressed and feeling the ways I will soon explain for years. But they seem to be getting worse... I've gotten to the point where I realize I NEED to get help. I took the test and got 121, I don't know if that or an image of it is something I should post but I have a screenshot if anyone wants to see it. I can tell you everything though. I am depressed, I have no confidence, and I am very insecure. This is the main reason I am here. Since I got back from Afghanistan I got a girlfriend, and we hit it off really well and fell for each other. But my feelings and insecurities are starting to get in the way of this relationship, and I really don't want to lose one more due to how I am. She was over almost everyday, but now she has a second job and at the same time I know I'm really starting to stress her out and push her away. I understand she is busy, but I still feel like sometimes she just doesn't want to be with me, or talk to me. It's hard to talk to her because of this and her tight schedule. I just want to get help before this relationship is ruined. The biggest thing I want, is to be happy. I'm rarely happy, and if I am I know that it isnt going to last long. My sleeping is all messed up, I drink way too much. (alone most of the time) Excuse my grammar and spelling, im just trying to get everything out as fast as I can, I have a ton of feelings and things to say all at once right now. I feel like help is right in front of me with all the information I have about mental health because I just got home from Afghanistan, but I ignore it because I'm embarrassed. Also, I feel worthless and don't want to be here anymore. I think about killing myself but I don't want to do it because of what would happen to my family and friends afterwords. So please, ask questions. I said everything for the most part, I just kinda needed to get it out, so sorry it's unorganized in one giant paragraph.
Please help.
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