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Hey guys,
Ok I have been doing good since going back on my meds. I have been talking to an older guy. He is 40 im 26. Anyways he lives in England and im in Scotland. Anyways we have been talking for about 2 weeks now and we have decided to meet in a few weeks time. He is gonna come up to me. I have just told him about having Bipolar and what I could act like but I am worried he hasn't fully grasped what it is like for me. He said he only really knows what he knows from the TV. I have bought stuff for his visit and he is renting a room at the hotel in all I have spent over £100. I don't know if I am ok with this or not but I want to see him. I don't know what he looks like as his computer is broken so we talk via text. However my phone can't receive pictures or send them. Catch 22. We spoke on the phone for the 1st time on Friday night for 5 minutes as I was anxious.
I have told him I will need to tell a friend that I am meeting him etc and he is fine with that. I am scared though. What if it all goes pear shaped? He says he loves me.... I don't love him, how can I when I have never seen him or met him.
Am I nuts for going ahead with this?
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