ok so staring at my phone and begging it to ring has absolutely not worked.

i have been near tears all day... i need to talk to her so badly.
just not doing so great. its getting so close to halloween (big trigger time for us)...memories coming up...having flashbacks... so worried that something has happened to our T, like an accident or something... worried she won't come home at all, worried that if she DOES call she will have bad news like that she isn't coming home at all. she told us before she left, "I dont even have citizenship there, I can't get a job!" ...her kids are here, a lot of her family is here, her house is here. But what's that stopping her from abandoning us anyway? Everyone else does.

feeling sick to my stomach.