Just wanted to say that I know how you feel. But really, no one is as normal as we think. No one is always happy, and no one is always sad. Everyone gets a little bit of both. You just get a little more of both. I'm the same way, you're not alone. Just try not to look at it like you're cursed for life. Focus on one day at a time, and don't worry about what tomorrow might bring. Live in the moment, and it won't really matter if you're normal or not.