Okay...so my T told me last session that we would have to look at our next session being 2 weeks out because he was going on a trip...it made me upset that he didn't tell me before hand that there would have to be a break-esp. when he knows I have severe abandonment issues...and worry all the time that he is going to leave me...I was over that for the most part-then I asked a girl that he works with where he was for the week-if he was at a conference or speaking at an event etc....but it turns out he is celebrating his anniversary-and for some reason that sparked so much anger within me-I almost emailed him to tell him that I changed my mind about wanting a session when he gets back-especially because now I know for sure that he is not going to be emailing me back...and it's about possibly talking to my doc for me about a med/dx change...I don't know what to do with this anger and being upset...I want to quit this therapy crap...it's just too much-and no one seems to understand why things like this upset me so much...maybe I dont either I don't think it's worth the trouble anymore...why can't I respond normally?!! My heart is pounding right now...and I want to just LOSE IT!!