Thank you very much for your replies.

I think that I am very demanding of myself and maybe this doesn't help me. Negative words that are said to me doesn't help me either. I don't have self esteem at all.

The yinyang in my signature is almost same as my tatoo. The colors in my tatoo is more bright though, and the design is not quite the same but it is the day and night. I wanted to put something in my signature that would represent who I am so there. Thank you!