That didn't take long! I must admit, I was frustrated while on my high because I WANTED to take a break and couldn't...but it was also nice because I was accomplishing things and my mind wasn't on depressive thoughts.

Now I'm back to feeling slow, unmotivated, and depressed. It's odd. When I'm high, I'd rather be depressed. When I'm depressed, I'd rather be high. For the first time in a long time, thoughts of self-harm and suicide came to mind tonight. Not serious ones, mind you. I no longer consider suicide an option. But it still bothered me.

I need to see my psychiatrist sooner than November 11th. I'm praying for a cancellation ASAP, since I'm on the cancellation list.