I battle depression and anxiety, and I once had an excellent therapist, but she has since moved on and the agency she was with will not tell me what happened to her or where she is located now. I have even tried doing an internet search, to no avail.

Since then, I have had a few therapists who actually left me wondering how they got to be a therapist at all!
I had one who talked non-stop, put words into my mouth that I never said, and told me all about her personal life! I walked out of there feeling very cheated.

Then another therapist I had was extremely negative, she would project her personal viewpoints on to my situations and wasn't always available to me. She told me that I didn't need to see her often, and she cut my sessions down because she thought "I could handle things on my own". I had a breakdown one weekend, and ended up in the hospital for 9 days. When I got out and contacted her, she practically yelled at me and asked me how I could let myself go so far downhill that I had to be put in the hospital! Now is this just me, or does this therapist sound insensitive? I stopped seeing her.

Now I am mistrustful and scared to even look for another therapist, for fear of something like this happening again. I also wonder if therapy is even healthy for me, since I would usually feel worse after a session rather than better. Does anyone else feel this way? I had someone tell me that therapy keeps you stuck in the past, and that dwelling on problems actually does make you worse. Any thoughts on this?

Thanks,
Sujin