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Old Oct 16, 2011, 08:42 PM
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Originally Posted by espritlibre View Post
I understand what you mean. I could have writted that first post myself - it's exactly how I've been feeling. I think dejavu's comment is also very true, that a moment can 'distract' us from the craziness inside. Here's hoping we find some peace (not the eternal kind!) eventually.
I am very aware in that moment, however, that I am posing as a normal person, that my conversation partner does not realize what is inside and what has been my past. So while I enjoy such moments, I am also on high alert. This is with more important and repeat conversation partners, I CAN enjoy a completely casual conversation with a stranger as if I were normal and kind, without feeling on high alert.

Sorry if this takes the thread astray a bit.