So, I'm doing my usual thing... Worrying about things that aren't going to happen for AWHILE. But I just had to get it off my chest.

I'm scared - no, terrified of my future. It's hard enough being a young adult, paying for college, paying for rent when you finally get a place of your own... But how do you figure medical treatment for my mental disorder into that? Sure, I can stay on my parent's insurance plan for a good long while but someday, that'll be over then what do I do? I'm so used to having everything handed to me, I don't know if I could handle the shock of having to deal with this stuff on my own.

I don't want to have to handle this on my own. I'm scared of being out there in the world, I want to just stay at home and be with my parents forever but I know that I can't do that. College is around the corner and I have to be prepared for it. It's going to be the first big step in becoming an adult and I'm terrified. I'm going to have to drive there myself (I have issues with driving, it scared the crap out of me!) which is a stressor in itself for me.

Wow, I do feel a lot better after getting that off of my chest.