I just wanted to quickly address what rainbow wrote, and others echoed, about not being able to remember her/a T's face. For those of you with BPD (particularly if you're a "quiet,as-if borderline"), this is a dissociative trait rooted in your psychopathology. I first learned about this from Cohen & Sherwood, I believe, but borderlines can expect to have trouble concretely remembering or visualizing their T's face between sessions. This is often why borderlines will want or keep a photo of their T as a transitional object between sessions for comfort.*

Incidentally, this phenomenon will also occur with anyone else a borderline feels intensely about.