I have a little time to write now. I feel better, but my H doesn't. We all went to a park with a nature museum today, but he stayed in bed.

Christine: that's very interesting about BPD and not remembering faces! What book or article did Cohen and Sherwood write? Actually, in my post I meant not only am I forgetting her face, but my sessions too. I feel kind of in a fog about therapy, like it happened long ago. I'm almost afraid to contact my T again. It's been a peaceful break, but that's how vacation is. When SHE goes away, I know I will be miserable!!

I've never thought about how well-lit my T's office is, but that's interesting too.

Clementine, it's nice to "meet you". Feel free to jump in to anyone's thread anytime! It may in fact be a kind of protective mechanism for me too. I never expected to feel this way. I have such strong feelings for my T and my sessions lately have been intense. Maybe my mind and body needed a rest from all that!

dizgirl, I do feel a little better today. Thanks. I am afraid if I call her I'll miss her so much that I won't enjoy the rest of my trip. But I need to call or email to set up my next appointment. I don't know what to do. I don't trust myself to do either though I know it's okay, like you said. Going this long, especially the first week when I was still home, without emailing, was a major accomplishment. I'm afraid it will "disappear" if I give in now, and that I won't be able to do it again. Or will I?

2or3things: I feel surprised that I could go so long without emailing my T. I'm a little scared that I will be overly dependent on her when I see her again, to make up for it. OR, I will push her away. I'm afraid our connection will be diminished in some way. What will she think? She will be glad I could do it! She'll want to know how I felt not emailing her. I don't really know why the urge isn't there now. My cold, like WePow wrote, may have something to do with it. I have no energy to think about my therapy now.

earthmamma, you're right. I think about her, but not clearly. I had a dream about her too, and I never did before. It was weird. She was waiting for me at my house but I was taking a bath and was bleeding from my period. I knew she was waiting for me but I had overslept and needed to take a bath first. We met outside and there were a lot of people there to see me, and I was annoyed. I don't remember the details. I had to help T with setting up or packing up or something and we had to get away from all those people all over my front yard to have my session. (Note: I don't get my periods anymore and never take baths!)

Thanks, stormy and WePow. Maslow--yes, I remember him and it's true.