Right there with ya. Same history, same diagnosis, and I am 39 years old. But, I am at the best place of my life. I am liking my late 30's. The rest of my past life has completely sucked. I also am in Northern California. I wish I had been healthy during my teens and 20's. I do feel like I lost those years completely. Sometimes I feel robbed, ya know? But, I am with a wonderful partner, I have a great job, and I am managing my Bipolar I. And my OCD. Really, I can't ask for more. Sending you good thoughts. And we are not old. We are ripe. like a peach. At the peak of our existence.