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Oct 16, 2011, 11:30 PM
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Member Since: Mar 2009
Location: So Cal
Posts: 3,342
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Well...I've been extremely down lately and my system is in hiding. Over the last week I have fought off many thoughts of ending my life, and many thoughts about SI. I'm feeling kind of proud of myself tonight though and I just wanted to share how good I feel right now.
Tonight, I went to my Over-eaters Anonymous meeting...which I stopped going to over a month ago; so I give myself brownie points for that.  Ooooh, did somebody say brownie!?! 
Then, I came home and I went and did a mild workout in the gym room at my apt complex, then took a 15 minute walk....came home, showered, brushed my teeth, and am considering what I want to eat for dinner. 
So, tonight, I won the battle of being healthy and taking care of myself!! It's not an easy thing for me to do. A lot of times I have difficulty finding the energy, physical and mental, to take care of myself and do everyday things like bathing and brushing teeth.
Now that I'm sitting here reading PC, I have my windows open and there's a nice breeze...I really feel kind of good. I know it won't last; it never does, but I'm going to try and live in the moment and let myself enjoy this feeling before it does pass me by. That is, if I can convince myself that I have a right to feel good. That always seems to be my biggest challenge.
I invite others to share ways that they won their own battles today. Let's celebrate the little things we do for ourselves that help keep us going!! 
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