Anika,

On another thread you said that you are a single mother of a 10,11,12 year olds. I just cannot imagine how you do it. Kudos to you!

I can tell you as a child of a strongly Bipolar I mother that both high and lows are not good. Highs, for a period of time, can be fun, but it wears off. Depression basically equals not being emotionally present in my life as your child. Stability, over the long haul, from the standpoint of the child, really pays off.

I know what I said does nothing to the cravings for the high, but it is just one perspective worth considering.

Take good care of yourself.