Granite, if someone is burnt out it's because of their own stuff. Not because of you. People are here, and they do care about you.

I know cutting is a control thing for me too. It's hard to give up control of one thing we CAN control when everything in our life seems like it's a total mess and complicated and bad.

Why can't you say anything to anyone? Do you have someone to talk to about this offline, a therapist?

Why do you hate yourself? What do you hate in your life, any way you can change some things for the better?