I know and I'm trying to.. but I know that if she does something and I could have stopped it it'll be my fault she's gone. and I couldn't live with that.

plus when she msgs me it's all she talks about so its hard to ignore.

I keep thinking I should distance myself and just not speak to her then I won't know if she does anything. then it can't hurt me.

but I have a feeling that will make her worse..

I just don't know what to do and I know I'm not thinking straight but I keep thinking if I do it first she can't hurt me..