Candy, I still say that going to your sister's is your best bet for now. You need care and someone to light a fire under you at times.

You also need the break from the heavy load you've been carrying for quite a while. It goes back farther than December and you know it.
go to your sister's...
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.