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Thanks Set Me Free. Getting away is top of my list. I live in the UK. Its not that simple at the moment. I own too many books and sentimental things to just abandon.
I have "NO CHOICE", but to stay here and pray for a way out.
There is no system here to deal with situations like this.
I am leaving the country as soon as possible.
I have no choice but to wait.
My problem is - my urges to not care - i.e - my urges to start cutting again.
I found escape like in the bottom of a bottle of wine, when I used top cut. When I cut before, I became the monster, I became the one saying 'burn in hell', to the abusers.
Maybe when I have slept properly and eaten I may be able to function. I honestly think though I will purge straight away - just because of stress. Stress causes so many things to happen. I have lost almost half a stone in 2 weeks just due to stress. The rings on my fingers are loose. I am 6ft 3ins, male, and under 11 st (not good).
Thanks for reply. You are right though, I need to get out. Its just how long can I wait till I break.
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