I am definitely in the "who am I" camp. Ifeel like my identity changes every time I have an episode. It makes me feel flakey, and growing up I was known for my flakey behavior. I embraced it. Something has changed though. Maybe it is having the responsibility of being an adult with adult concerns, but I can find that person anymore.
I am feeling rther empty, in fact. There is some essence missing. Sometimes it feels like I am just a body walking around. *shakes off a chill*
As far as being or having bipolar, I haven't decided what works for me yet. It may well be who I am, or it might be a small piece of who I am. I don't really know what I want it to be.
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