Don't feel bad, life is what it is! I am 54 and don't think I have ever been correctly diagnosed. I never liked Doctors so I tried to stay away from them. I was hospitalized when I was in my teens for depression always been a drug abuser with lots of ups and downs. But I managed to raise two biological children now 25 and 21 and a few step children along the way and others that turned out to be great individuals. I am proud of that. I always figured I am what I am and not just a diagnosis! I figure life is a learning experience and I am still learning as I am still here trying to learn to live in the moment! I still have friends from grade school also friends with the X so I guess I didn't burn to many bridges! Trying hard to not take ME to serious! Life is good if I let it be!