I wish I could answer your questions of what you do now - I so know that trust issue thing - has taken me so long to start to trust my T enough - I think all I can suggest is to have faith and just see what happens - I know that this is particularly scarey when there are trust issues and for me, I like to know how, what, when, why etc. - T tells me to not fight my feelings, but to just be interested in them. Let us know how your session goes - Soup