Right now the DSM- IV TR doesn't really have a good description for the borderline. Even the name "Borderline" isn't really name is it? I mean if someone says "Borderline Personality" it sounds as if that person only "sort of" has a personality. They are on "the border" of having a personality but they don't really have one do they?
There are talks of changing the name which is fine but what about deciding what this means?
For me, I'm unable to feel happy when I'm alone. It's only in the presence of another that I feel normal. Sitting with my own thoughts is severe punishment.
My husband does offer me unconditional love. But when he's not around I can't feel it. And sometimes when he's here I can't feel it. I see it in his eyes, he loves me and I hope I am radiating that love back. I try. But I fear my love is shallow compared to his. His kindness amazes me sometimes. I want to return this love.
But for me unconditional love isn't enough to make me feel satisfied. What does one do to fill themselves up and be happy?
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