I have thought about how the way I've perceived the world my whole life might be related to being bipolar. Seeing the world as psychedelic as a young young child, seeing little worlds in the bigger world, being creative, being funny- putting layers of things together to make a joke that's very funny. It's kind of like I'm derealzing as a kid and yet I can still do it today. I always thought I was the only one- but now I feel part of an alien race of sorts. When we are not "normal", it's amazing the bonding and caring that goes on between us- and it's not easy from the "sane" side either- seeing a bp friend deal with his own private Hell.