Thank you for your response. I am currently not on any medication right now. I don't want to go back on it because I tried so many medications when I was younger and nothing worked. They all made me more tired and moody. I did have a good therapist at one point, but now she doesn't accept insurance anymore and I am not willing to pay $80/session to continue to see her. I do not have good thoughts about ECT especially since research does not support its effectiveness. Yes, my mom does drain a lot out of me. She is very negative to be around. I feel like I did everything in the books to be happy yet I just can't be happy. I am not sure there is much more I can do =(