I wanted to first thank everyone who responded to this thread and all the good advice. I haven't been on top of keeping certain things organized in the house the last few years. Last night after me and the girls went to bed....he dumped the contents of the kitchen drawers on the counter. Since my oldest wakes up before me, she swept all the stuff into bags...so I wouldn't be bothered. I was livid inside.

He woke up and said good morning like unusual and I promised myself I wouldn't react. He said "that was a lot of stuff eh"? I said "I don't want to discuss it" and he got mad. We then started arguing and going around the typical circles we've been over several times. Since things are so bad financially he can't afford 2 dwellings and doesn't want to lose this house which we struggled to keep. He planned on getting the divorce on paper only...NOT actually moving or living apart. If I initiate things on my own it will dissolve what's meagerly left asset wise which is nothing really - which means I would live in poverty.

So my hopes are ruined for now. For now I'm just going to keep going the way I'm survived for the last 5/6 yrs. I feel embarrassed for posting this prematurely before I actually had real action. I appreciate all the advice and know how much you all were hoping for better results. I can tell by the number of views this thread got, that everyone was hoping for the best for me and I'm sorry to disappoint all who cared to give me advice.