Maybe it'd help both of us to look at it in terms of "sick" or "disorder" instead of "bad" and "good". I tend to do the same, but I think maybe that just adds to our guilt. My husband always says when I apologize, "It's not your fault. You have a problem." Maybe we should look at it in terms of simply having a problem that's hard to control instead of labeling ourselves bad people. I know though, easier said than done, but it's worth a shot.