Well where she works now the therapy is only supposed to be short term.17 sessions or less(I have been seeing her at that place for the last 2 years) I dont want to get her in trouble by being selfish.
I need to get better..had this way to long and it is really affecting my body. having kidney issues now, dont have a large bowel from over use of laxatives and who knows what else. Part of the reason the last hospital stay didnt help is because when I drink ensure I have to mix it with water b/c it is to rich. With all of my stomach issues it really goes right through me. As it was I was in the bathroom there at least 15 times a day with my bowels. I would have drank all of it if they would have let me just dilute it some. So I stopped drinking it..why drink it if it was going to make me sick? So since I wasnt following the program they sent me home at the lowest weight they could get away with. Besides that I just got there bill for $900.. Just so very frustrated b/c I just cant seem to get over this. Freak out everytime I feel like I am starting to gain weight. I dont look at the scale. They just tell me when I lose. The T that I was talking about called me today to see how I was and I told her maybe this is as good as it is going to get. I am eating(not what they want me to , but I am eating. They keep trying to tell me that I am malnourished to..I really dont think so but who knows what is real anymore. I dont want to give up but I dont want to have to try to trust another person. I eat dinner with my brother and his family every night before I go to work so that way i am eating before I go in. I also try to eat something there and when I get home to. But I guess salads, aplles and toast just dont cut it even though I feel like I am eating so much....feel like quiting..maybe this is gods way of telling me to take a brake. I just dont want to spiral down to fast (or at all)
Thank you for your concern!