(((((granite1)))))

I'm sorry that you are feeling so low and invisible. I assure you, you are not invisible. I also assure you that there IS a part of you who cares...otherwise, why would you have posted? This isn't a bad thing at all, it's actually a positive sign that there is definitely a part of you who wants to get help with managing these self-harm behaviours and thoughts.

I'm sorry if you've been asked this a million times, but are you receiving any professional help?