What an ordeal for you. I know there has been, on the forum, a lot of frustration about taking meds and also a lot of advocates of taking meds. I go through that battle in my head every day. Sometimes, like now, I want to go off meds and find my former self, but I know that I will just feel awful without meds. Honestly, who knows what the newer meds do to our bodies in the long term. They haven't been used long enough to have those studies. Anyway, I hope you feel better, and the upside is that you get to eat candy every day for 8 weeks.