Thanks for the reply wolfsong. The girlfriend just got a second job, so shes really busy, but this also happened at the same time we started to drift away because of my condition. So I haven't been able to see or talk to her much in the past week but last night she came over for little while to pick up her sister. She still seemed distant, (keep in mind there were two other people around, so shes not going to just pour her feelings out) but when they left I walked her and her sister out, and her sister went ahead, and my gf kinda turned to me so we could have a minute to try and talk. That's when I used what little time I had to just say, "hey i dont expect anything back from this, but I love you and i'm going to change. I'll show you." She said it back but I think it was just because she didn't want to be rude. After that she went home and we talked via text for a little bit before she went to sleep, and I think shes just at the point were I need to show her some changes, or it's over. My only concerns are, can I actually change, and if so keep it for more than a day or two? Also, has it passed the point of no return? Either way, I been texting her less, (less up her ***, not constantly texting her, or getting very depressed and insecure and send her text after text of negative things while shes working) I went to the gym today, ate subway instead of something unhealthy, and now I'm home and at the point where I haven't heard from her for hours, but shes working.. So instead of sitting here wondering about her, I'm going to DO MY BEST to find something to keep myself occupied tonight. So I think if I can show her soon that I can change and not act how I acted to make her distant from me, she will come back to me fully. If not, hey.. as you said, life goes on. I straight up asked her, are you still my girlfriend and she said yes.. So I think she does care, she just needs to see change. That's my motivation, if I change, I will feel better about myself, and get to keep the girl. So I'm off to find something to do now, I'll be back.

Again, thank you so much for your time and effort to help a stranger. I greatly appreciate it...