granite, I am SO sorry this happened to you. I know your T doesn't hate you. She obviously thinks if she waits long enough you will talk to her. I don't know what advice to give you. You have other options--to try someone else, or to give or tell your T what you've posted here. If you do the latter, something will change but she's got to hear your feelings to be able to help you.

I KNOW how badly you're hurting!! I wish I could help more. I feel SO helpless. I care about you a lot!!!