sorry i keep posting but i cant stop my brain .i missed her so much.i really did.why did she do this.i really hurt and i isn't getting better.i so dont like her right now.i know i will never see her again but it hurts.and i am so scared ill just be like this always.i said i was going to stick with this untill it worked.i guess i messed this up also .but i guess i knew eventually this would happen.grrrr i so want to scream and never stop but even if i cry my husband will drag me to the clinic so i am hiding but i just want to scream