Granite, I'm not reading to be amused .. . I believe in my heart that many people, myself included read because we experience the same thing but we turn away or not respond because we don't know what to say. It's scary and disconcerning to see/view someone as doing or feeling what many of us feel or experince in therapy. I think from what I read of your experience that you don't think or feel that anyone views therapy in the same way you do .. . I can safely say that I and others that I"ve talked to over time have experienced the same feelings and sensations you have in regard to being "in therapy".

If you are a person who is "tuned into" reading clinical books, please take the opportuinity to read a non-fiction book titled: Trauma and the Advoidant by Robert T. Muller. I am a very well read person in regard to psychotherapeutic clinical readings, but this book took me by surprise. I read it in one day (it's not a long or terribly intellectually demanding booK) but it's a text that is useful and awakening to people who struggle with connecting/accepting/trusting/being open. ... I'm not saying that you have difficulty with that . . . but I am suggesting that you might want to "check out" this book. Take care!