Yes I said it I wanna cancel T tommorrow. The sad part is I am not sure why. I feel like such a failure in T. My mind tells me I should be so much farther along. My anxiety about going tomorrow is through the roof. I just dont know if I should go...I definitely dont want to go like this. I despise having to trust someone, let them close and ask for help. Uggggghhhh!!! It makes me sick. I should be able to do all this by myself. ... ... ... ... ... But I cant and it pisses me off! Why cant I just be ok?? Thats all I have ever wanted. Instead I get some crazy mood disorder, dissociatve issues, and more. I HATE ME. ITS AWFUL BEING ME. ok written myself to tears...time to stop!