Though to me it feels separate from the misalignment I mentioned, I definitely can related to that. I expect people to reject me, to think cruel things about me, to treat me harshly. One question on a depression test I've taken measured how much one "expects to be punished". I think that what you've mentioned is what that question is really getting at. When we get low, we expect people to punish us simply for existing. If this has happened multiple times, the expectation for cruel treatment outlives the depressive symptoms and occurs all the time.