Ok, normally this would sound odd.

BUT I have an extremely hard time with anger because it scares me.

TODAY I got mad. In fact, Im mad now... Mad Mad Mad.

the guy i was living with last month had to leave suddenly, we are on a month to month lease so we agreed he would pay me this months rent, cause he has to by law.

He knows im on stress leave, he knows my problems, he knows if he didnt pay me i would lose the place.

He hasnt called, hasnt written, anything.

I was feeling suspicious and decided to check to see if he blocked me on msn.

Well, he totally did because hes online now.

He totally knew i would be screwed if he didnt come through, and has totally taken advantage of that.

Whats more amusing is that I found new roomates, and was going to tell him that he didnt have to pay the whole thing, (370.00) and could just pay me like 100.00 and we would call it square since I found people
But the fact that he took advantage of me, Well. Nevermind that Im going after every freaking cent. No more miss Nice Guy.

I am so mad, and it feels good and constructive.

I dont need to let people like that ruin me or take advantage of me.

And its good that I am MAD MAD MAD without being so scared i am hiding.