I just want to say that lastnight felt like the world was going to end for me and i just didnt care.i didn't think that i was ever going to feel any better.thanks all of you for caring for me when things really seemed so miserable and endless.i hope i am able to do the same for all of you.

i am still really shooken up by yesterday but at least i am able to function and think somewhat clearly about the situation.i am going to try and call my T today and tell her i need her to let me know how much i messed thing up and if i really screwed up being able to come there anymore.

i hope she will call me back but i am so mistrustfull now it feels like i am back to square one. what she did was mean and hurtfull and i dont know how to approach it with her .i probibly won't.some things are better just left alone and forgotten in the intrest of pece.it was mostly me acting like a spoiled brat anyway because i wasnt getting my way or something.