((((( granite )))))

I'm SO sorry that I wasn't here for you last night.....I'm glad you're doing a little better.

I recall sessions when I shut down and T just SAT THERE....and I became so upset and angry and frustrated. I then just told him that I wouldn't waste his time anymore.

The next session, we talked about it...and he said he wasn't frustrated with me at all, that he was giving me space to "just BE". And we talked about the feelings that came up for me - how I felt abandoned by him in that moment, distant, that he didn't care. All of those feelings that came up were generated by me, not him. It's sooo hard to deal with.

Hope your conversation with T goes well....((( HUGS )))