Hi madisgram,
I think that people do self sabotage, but its really good that you are aware of it. I didnt realise that I self sabotage, because its my own mind ie unless an alternate thought comes about, then how can I know whether Im sabotaging myself. I think most of it is to do with absolutely no self worth with some people. I dont think you should be annoyed with yourself for drinking to forget your problems -. The way the world is, people personalities are becoming homogenized like milk! I dont know what the answer is, wish I did, but I do think that David Icke is right. I dont think reptilians rule but there is some truth to what he's saying, I cant figure out what it is, possibly and likely to be aliens. Everyone says to practise meditation ; dont worry about it and go to practise with a good practiioner.
Mala