Jerry is leaving for good on Friday. Guess I'm needing to see an attorney to re-instate the legal separation, namely for him to buy insurance for me. SSDI has notified me that they will be taking $225 for Medi-cal. I get $826 now. I can't afford for them to take that money.

I will be asking for the money from Jerry to finish what he started here but never finished.

The rest, I know I can depend on my friends for, such as rides to the grocery store and the doctor.

All I need now is for someone to tell me that I can do this; that I can get through until Friday, or when he will be really ready to go. He's got a boat, a motorcycle and an RV to find storage for plus clean all his things out. I don't want one single thing of his left here. He will NOT be coming back and we will NOT be so-called friends.

I have to find a way to tell David simply because I want his moral support. Don't know that he will put any pressure on Jerry to do what he needs to do to leave me set. David can DO it, but he hates "drama." I will NOT involve John in this. He will take Jerry's side of things anyway.

Ok! Now tell me you KNOW I can do this. I've done it before, right? Tell me I can do it! ...and mean it?

What touched this off? I asked him to go to the store for me to buy cigarettes and munchies.

(please let me numb out until he's gone. please don't let my abandonment issues get the best of me! PLEASE don't let me cry!!)