my T accually called me back she told me of corse i can come back on monday she said she knows that i am doing the best that i can but she thinks that i can do better. she then said she had a sujestion.seeing as one of the things that needs to be worked on is me being reactive that nextime i feel this way that i need to tell her and then we can talk about it.if i remember the one time i told her i wanted to leave she told me to stop acting like she is tourchering me.at the time it really felt like she was.i asked her if she was horribly angry at me and she stopped for a second and said G have i ever been horribly angry with you?think about it a minute.i probibly could think of a million times i felt this way but i felt it best not to talk about it at this time and just said no.it isnt a conversation to have on the phone.she seemed to sound a little like she cared when she said she knows i am doing my best but thinks i can do better.she ended with see you on monday and pleas will i think about what she said.