I have been talking about this with my T today - the brick wall (more of a tower), the trust, the fear of things being uncontrollable after exposing myself and I'm still no further forward. I'm sure she is completely and utterly trustworthy and I'm pretty sure I'm not going to go up in a puff of smoke if I can remove a few of the bricks. I feel stuck and frustrated. Am blaming it on my meds suppressing my emotions but maybe it's all just me. I'm so used to coping that I don't know how to get past this.