oh wow

I am really struggling right now. I'm paralyzed. I have so much to do and I feel frozen. My heart is racing.

I have no one to talk to in real life about this besides T. I see T on Friday. And weirdly, I feel ANGRY at T, even though he very literally has done NOTHING to deserve it. He's just the same loving supportive T he's always been. I don't know where else to put the anger.

This. feels. horrible.