I don't want to be Debbie Downer here, but the realization was, for me, easier than the repurcussions of an insight like your own, which I had ....it was a new development, completely unexpected, like your own.

The repurcussions came when I admitted that I had wasted a lot of years being fairly numb, and wasted a lot more making compensations for my wacky family of origin....enlisting in their lies, their denial systems, their assumptions about the world (being a fundamentally dangerous place), their assumptions about how to exist in the world (by working and achieving).

O the anger, the mis-steps, the collateral (sp?) damage. It was not pretty.

But I'm glad I'm doing it (I did not say DID it).

Take care!